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Mama What a Difference You Made in Our Lives. April 13, 2012
 

  




Jessalyn, You would't believe the difference & changes that have took over Our Lives,Family & Home since You were taken away from Us.  I still watch for You to come walking in the back door @ night, or Maybe, I will answer the Telephone & I can hear You say," I'm okay,Mama, I'm on My way Home."  I miss Your Friendship & the sweet fact of knowing that You always had My Back & You were always there for Waylon & prepared to go to battle in defense & honor.  I know He can't talk, But, You wouldn't believe the Hurt that He has had to endure the last few years.  This past Year & the things that have taken place and the support he used to be blessed with has left Him wondering where His Family is & Why dosen't anyone want to spend time with Him anymore?  God Forbid, Anyone ask Waylon to go somewhere with them, He just might embarrass them, or scare their Children. 

  Since You've been gone, Everything & Everyone has changed, not for the better, like You would think after losing such a Young & Loving Person in their lives in such an unexpected & detrimental way.  I mean Hearts have hardened, compassion was here for a little while & then it faded away too.  My tears are the last thing I see each night now, along with the sounds of Whimpers & Prayers cried out in anger & confusion to the Lord, As I plead for whats left of Our Family to endure the pain and wish for the closeness and concern for each other to enter back into Our lives.  Nobody cares who gets hurt anymore, how many tears get wept, or How hurtful the words that flow from their selfish sin-fed mouths are to others anymore.

Matter of fact, I've learned about heartache & loneliness the last few years, and if I'm experiencing this, Waylon has to step every step with Me, & I would have thought that, We had been through so much & He's had to see so much sin,loss & illness as well as hearing the jeers & Titles, such as "Retarded" & the gawking stares from strangers as well as Family & Friends that Our lives could stand a little Blessing & Comfort for the rest of what little time we have left.

   Jessalyn, I am so sorry that You had to suffer the things You did & witness the selfishness & immaturity as You grew into an Adult, You were made to grow-up & be wiser than your years because of the mistakes I made & the Time I spent focusing on providing You & Your Brothers & Sister with anything you may have needed, But, I am so thankful, I  was made to see the light before it was too late, I cherish those days & nights we were able to share each others thoughts, wants & regrets &  I am content in knowing that I was able to show You what Happiness, Contentment & Unconditional Love in a Home and Marriage could actually be like & that you were able to experience the courage & dedication it often took to be able to share this joy & Family Values  within a Broken Marriage just as You had requested. If not for You, Your relationship with your Daddy would have been severed & Jealousy & hurtful actions would have been the center of Our Home & alot of Memorable Times would not have been experienced.  I will always be thankful to Derrall for giving You & Waylon as well as Brandy,Michael & Dewayne the opportunity for Your Daddy to be a Part of yall's growing-up & having the ability to share & watch you being raised to respect your Parents,Elders and The Lord.  It took all of us to mold you into a Kind-Hearted, Caring & Loving Daughter as well teaching you to be Independent & Responsible, Hard-Worker and pay your debts with money or a selfless act of kindness to others.  I look back and see that I wanted You to be everything that we were not or had not been able to achieve.  We were trying to mold you into a Responsible Parent, a Loving & Trusting Wife & a Proud & Appreciative Daughter & Protective Sister. Not knowing,that God had other Plans for Your Sweet Young Life. 

    I ask the Lord to send back some of those values that we instilled in You and Your Brothers & Sister so that we can learn from them & value their presence in Our Home & Family, Because right now, We are without that security & humble actions of selflessness & we have let the Devil take the place of the ones we lost.  So, I went to see one of God's deciples last night to Pray for and annoint Me & Waylon asked that Our Home be Blessed & reject all sinful actions & selfish acts. I Pray that Our Marriage can withstand & endure all evil temptations and Wordly Possessions that try to cause pain & heartache, I rebuke all vulgar language & ungodly actions so that Our Home will A Blessed Home & it's inhabitants will be Servants for the Lord & Uphold His Holy Name.  This is the only way, Me & Waylon will be able to Survive the loss of Your Presence,Boog and the absence of your deamanding conditions you always made sure we had as a Family and Extended Family.  You were Our Little Saviour & now I Pray for You and Papa Bullard to send Peace, Love & Blessing in Our Home & hearts.

   Jessalyn, come see Waylon in His dreams, He looks for You all the time.........

Mama Fought a Good Fight November 24, 2011
 

Mama Angels in Eternal Love May 26, 2011
 
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                                                         Jake & Jessalyn
                                  

                               "Still hard to conceive that You were both taken from Us, 
                   
    just a Month apart from each other in seperate accidents."
                          The more I read of Your Thoughts & out-cry of Love 
                               there seems to have been a sense of Your Fate 
                               clouding your confused & innocent thoughts...
Mama Sweet Sorrow April 15, 2011
 
I'm hoping to post some of your Poems & Phrases that I've been reading lately.  I have sat & cried every night this week, as I sat here with Waylon keeping an eye on Me.  I want to hear your voice, touch your hair, & smell Your favorite perfume, I tried so hard to see if your scent was still on the clothes in your closet.
  I can really feel You with Me, when I sit alone in Your car.  I can only  imagine the Memories that were made in the Ol' Geo.  Everytime someone stops by to see if I want to sell it, I run them off & so does Mr. White!!!!!!
 Girl, I feel like I need to get away from here for a while, I never go anywhere these days.  I spend most of my time trying to stay busy (when I feel well) or find Myself trying to please everyone else.  Your Brother is My rock, He keeps me here & I tend to keep a clear mind as I think & worry about his Future.  He just sits here with Me, Nobody wants to take Waylon anywhere or ask him to spend the night, (same ol-same ol)
Maybe I need to return the favors, huh? I want to take him to the Mountains, but I'm scared I will want to stay & not come back......
Well, I wanted to tell You that I Love & miss You something fierce.  I just feel like there is something Your trying to tell me at times, I get so damn depressed when I can't communicate with My Children...It sucks.....
Hoping for a peaceful weekend, taking care of a few things, and following" My Want To DO List" for a change, It's only 3 Pages long......
Send Me some peace, Baby Girl, these thoughts & feelings of emptiness are starting to worry Me....
Edwina~Troy Mitchell's mum Thinking of Jessalyn on her heavenly B/day January 22, 2011
 

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Mama Christmas 2010 December 16, 2010
 

Here we are again, Another Christmas without the Shining Star!

I guess this time of the Year,is always the hardest for me.  If only We had One More Day with You.  There are so many Days that I could use Your smile or even that sometimes cocky attitude.  I talk to You, usually at night, but it's just not the same not hearing you say, " I know Mama!"  I miss your Friendship & company, This House feels so empty & cold now & the Nights are way too quite & eerie.

What I would give to hear You open up the back door & start rummaging through the refrigerator again.  That feeling when You came home always gave me comfort, I knew You were Home safe once again & all the worrying & waiting I did was for nothing.  I can still hear You Say, "Aw,Mama, You worry way-too much! "  I guess the only comfort I have these days, is knowing that You are in a better & safer place now & Waylon is spending his Teenage Years right here at Home where He is safe.  I am missing so much of the things that others take for granted, I can't hear either of My Children say that they, "Love Me" or talk to me about the things going on in their lives.  "Silence is Deafening......"

And, I miss your Papa so much too, I smile sometimes, just knowing that He's there with You & Your Uncle Mitch,finally at peace.

Well, I just needed to share my feelings with you & tell You that ,I Love You & miss you more & more each day.  I'll never get over the emptiness I feel as My Family continues to dwindle away from Me.

Send Me a Special Blessing for Christmas, I really need it.....

mom 2 Waylon Kitchens Happy Birthday in Heaven January 20, 2010
 
Happy Birthday Glitter Graphics
Austin Tucker (Cricket) It's Me Aunt Boog!! July 31, 2009
 
Hey Aunt Boog it's me, Austin I'm almost 3 now, in November. You would be so proud of me, I'm learning how to go to the potty, and i am good at it(most of the time). My mommy and daddy shows me your picture often and always tells me how much you love me and how you are always in my heart. I have a picture of you and me and I will treasure it forever, although I dont remember you like Bubba and Sissy do( they love you and miss you sooooo much too) i have the memories in my heart that mom and dad remind me of. It's hard on my daddy that you're not here anymore on earth and he cries whenever he thinks of you, but he knows you are up in Heaven keeping us all safe. Keep us all safe and we ALL love and miss you so much. Austin Derrall Tucker
Derrick and Family Thinking of You July 27, 2009
 

Jessalyn,

        We just want you to know that we love you, miss you, and still think of you everyday. Weither its passing by your cross and honking and I give you that brotherly wave with a love you jessabell or baby girl, or when we see your pictures with your smile that says you never know what I am thinking, or just telling stories with dad and melissa. We wish you could have meet us all and I sure would like to know if you think I take good care of your brother. Because you of all people know how hard headed and loveing he can be and all at the same time. We sure would like to be able to let you spoil our boys with your love. I don't know about Averie yet, but I know Dalton would keep you busy, happy, and laughing. Though we may not write or visit you much, We hope you know that your memories keep us laughing and loving. You'll forever be derrick's favorite sister, friend, and fighting partner. We love you forever and can't wait to see you again and for the first time for the boys, but don't doubt that they won't know who you are.

                              We love you forever,

                         Derrick,Amanda,Dalton,and Averie

        

         

mom 2 Waylon Kitchens Heaven's angels June 13, 2009
 

 

The warm Rays you feel everyday are not just sunshine...

But, the touch of the Angels who want to let you know,

they are watching over you!

~Hugs~ & ~God Bless~

AUNT MISSIE STILL MISSING YOU May 28, 2009
 

BABE IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS
AND OUR HEARTS STILL FEEL THE SAME,
IT BREAKS RIGHT INTO
EVERY TIME SOMEONE SPEAKS YOUR NAME

FOR YOU SHOULD STILL BE WITH US
LIKE SO MANY YEARS BEFORE,
HEARING THE "GEO" PULL-UP
AND YOU WALKING THROUGH THE DOOR

SAYING "HEY EVERYONE IT'S ME"
WITH THAT SMILE UPON YOUR FACE,
LAUGHING AND JOKING AROUND
NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE

WE OFTEN WONDER IF
YOU WOULD'VE GOTTEN MARRIED,
OR IF BY NOW
A CHILD YOU WOULD'VE CARRIED

WOULD IT HAD BEEN A PRECIOUS DAUGHTER
OR A HANDSOME SON,
IT BREAKS OUR HEARTS TO KNOW
THIS PART OF YOUR LIFE WAS LEFT UNDONE

WE THINK OF WHEN YOU LEFT
YOU DIDN'T SAY A WORD,
WE NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE
BUT IN OUR HEARTS, YOUR GOOD-BYE WAS HEARD

WE'LL ALWAYS FEEL A VOID INSIDE
BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT HERE,
BUT EACH DAY A NEW THOUGHT YOU SEND OUR WAY
LET'S US KNOW THAT YOU ARE NEAR

SO UNTIL OUR JOURNEY ON EARTH ENDS
AND WE HEAR THE ANGELS SING,
WE'LL FACE EACH NEW DAY AS IT COMES
AND LIVE OFF THE LOVE YOUR MEMORIES BRING

WE THANK GOD FOR KOWING YOU
AND IT BREAKS OUR HEARTS THAT YOU WENT AWAY,
AND WE'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND
WHY YOU JUST COULDN'T STAY

WE KNOW ONE DAY GOD WILL EXPLAIN IT ALL
WHEN WE'RE TOGETHER ONCE MORE,
BUT UNTIL THEN REACH OUT AND FEEL OUR LOVE
WE'RE SENDING TO HEAVEN'S GOLDEN SHORES

LOVE YA MY BABE
AUNT MISSE

 

 

AUNT MISSIE JESSALYN MY BUTTERFLY February 26, 2009
 

I have seen this beautiful butterfly
Who sees inside my heart
She smiles when I am happy
She stays with me when it is dark

I have known this beautiful butterfly
For the longest time
And all my  PRECIOUS MEMORIES
Will  always be mine

My butterfly glows with such bliss
She can stop the rain with her kiss
She is so beautiful when she spreads her wings
Tederness and love is what she brings
She always has such a beautiful glow
oh yes i love her so!

My beautiful butterfly I have known
Is caring, for her heart is very sweet
She lights my way within the night
And holds me when there's no hope in sight
God knew I needed a butterfly like her
All my life long

Oh Butterfly, let me take wing and follow
No matter where you may be
Even when God calls me home
I know you will be close to me

You,JESSALYN, "MY BABE", are this butterfly.

 

AUNT MISSIE THINKING OF MY PRECIOUS BABE February 17, 2009
 

 

They say there is a reason
They say that time will heal
But neither time nor reason
Will change the way we feel.
For no one knows the heartache
that lies behind our smiles,
No one knows how many times
we have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something
so there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of
but so hard to live without.
We cannot bring the old days back,
when we were all together
but know one thing Babe
Our hearts will be broken Forever 
Babe until we meet at HEAVEN'S gates
watch over us and lead the way
give us strentgh and help us through
Beacuse nothing will be the same without you

Angelica Merry Christmas December 25, 2008
 

Hey Girl, Just itting here missing you so very much on X-Mas morning I remember all the Holidays I spent with you its so lonely with you not being here , I took your Gift from all of us to you  yesterday and unwrapped it for you I hate that we all have to do that But you know we all have to do it can't leave you hanging W/out anything ,,I miss u so much , I still can't believe ur gone I wanna talk to you so bad  I do everything I can to keep ur Memory going By talking about you  twenty four seven or buying you things or you know cause you're up there watching  Just remember your always in my heart AND YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND ,,REST IN PEACE GURLIE TELL KYLE NAD JAKE HEY FOR ME HOPE YOUR HAVING A GOOD X-MAS WITH ALL YOUR LOVED ONES UP THERE AND JESUS LOVE YOU ALWAYS ANGELICA

 

Angelica Just wanting to talk to you October 26, 2008
 

Jessalyn,

hey I've been thinking about you all day everyday ...A little Bit of Justice was served for you ,,But thats still not enough ,,Twenty years i just ask god why? You weren't even with us for that long..it just hurts so bad knowing Iwill not be listening for the GEO to pull up or you to lay on the horn like you use to do ,,We had so much fun for the five years that we were best Friends , i know I'll never have another friend like you ..People are lieing on us ,,I don't know why they just try to hurt us all more than we're already hurting ...I know that that night was not my fault Jessalyn but when lies and rumors go around crazy thoughts go through my mind so will you please send me some peace with that sitution...I know that you are up in heaven watching over me ,,you were like my big sister and i can remember U telling me I was your Little Sis you never had and thoughts like that make me feel good or when i read all the letters you wrote to me  not that i could read that many letters in one day lol,,I guess what I am saying is thank you for leaving me things like thta behind....Well Angel I'll  talk to you later ilove you and miss you so much keep watching over us all and send  everyone some peace ILOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY ANGEL...................           Love Always your best friend Angelica

Angelica Just wanting to talk to you October 26, 2008
 

Jessalyn,

  hey

Momma Our day in Court October 10, 2008
 

                          We have finally been given a Trial date

              & the Jury will be selected on Monday, 10-13-08

 

                               Baker County Courthouse

                                     Courtroom #2

         Wednesday, October 15th  & Thursday, October 16th

                         Court will begin @ 9:00 a.m.

 

        (We will not be allowed to wear Our Memory Buttons as we had planned)

 

                 We will be fighting for Justice for the death of

                   Our Precious Daughter, Jessalyn

    as well as the Bodily Injury to her Friends, Angelica & Summer.

 

         I have included a picture of the car that Jessalyn's life was taken in:

                             

                   "Remember a Drunk Driver caused this:"            

 

 

            

 

 

 

 

Justin & Jacob OUR AUNT September 9, 2008
 

TOO OUR AUNT BOOG,

   WE MISS YOU SO MUCH AUNT BOOG IT'S  ME JUSTIN , I REALLY WISH I COULD SEE YOU AND RUN UP TOO YOU AND HUG YOU AND NEVER EVER LET GO. I CRY FOR YOU ALOT I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY? I CAN'T SEE YOU BUT I KNOW I WILL GET TO HUG YOU AND KISS YOU ONE DAY .I LOVE YOU AUNT BOOG . IT'S ME AUNT BOOG JACOB LOOK HOW BIG JUSTIN AND I GOTTEN

WE ARE IN KINDERGARTEN KNOW WE ARE BEING GOOD FOR YOU SO YOU CAN BE PROUD OF US .

BOOG WE SEE YOU IN OUR DREAMS SO THANK YOU FOR LOVING US LIKE YOU DID AND WE COULD NEVER FORGET THAT LOVE AND NEVER WILL . 

              WE LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER

                                              JUSTIN AND JACOB .

Brett&Lauren Wages Meet you at the Gate September 9, 2008
 

A beautiful garden now stands alone

missing the one who nurtured it

but now she is gone, Her flowers still bloom, and the sun it still shines,

but the rain is like tear drops for the ones left behind.

The weeds lay waiting to take the gardens beauty away,

but the beautiful memories of its keeper are in our hearts to stay.

she loved every flower even some that were weeds,

so much love she would plant with each little seed,

but just like her flowers she was part of Gods plan,

So when it was her time he reasched down his hand,

he looked through the Garden searching for the best,

thats when he found Jessalyn, it was her time to rest,

It is hard for those who love her just to let her go,

But God had a spot for her in his garden that needed a gentle soul,

So when you start missing her, remember if you just wait

When God has a spot in his garden, Jessalyn will meet you at the Gate!

Edwina ~ Troy Mitchell's mum Thinking of you August 26, 2008
 

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To all who love and miss dear Jasalyn you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Your precious angel is certainly a very beautiful young woman.

Her amazing smile captured my heart instantly. You have created an amazing

tribute to honor Jessalyn's memory.

I wish that there where something I could say to ease your heartache,  having my

own precious angel I feel your pain, I pray that you find some comfort knowing that others care and will remember your precious angel. God Bless ~ Edwina

 

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