Jessalyn Miranda Combs

Dear Santa can you see me With tears upon my face
A heart so badly broken Missing my Babe's embrace
As I write this letter... to express my only wish
Dear Santa, please remember One gift upon my list
Her smile and her laughter Her hugs and kisses too
Dear Santa I am pleading To make my wish come true
I haven't been quite perfect I've tried the best I can
But being you are Santa... You might just change the plan
Each day I wake to sorrow ... Pain that I can't flee
Dear Santa I am asking Could you bring her back to me?
Dear Santa could you find it... within your kind warm heart
To bring her home for Christmas So we are not apart?

Yesterday in Heaven, A sweet Angel went to our Father's throne

This Angel said, My heavenly Father

I've been in heaven for just a little over a year

Wearing wings made of silver and gold

While Mom's face is stained with tears

She's going to need me tomorrow

To comfort and ease her pain

I want to surrond her with all my  love

Cause her tears fall like rain

You have a Mother too, Lord

Who once felt the pain of losing you

She knows what it is like for a Mother

To feel misery the whole day through,

Our Father looked at his precious Angel

Who was kneeling at his throne

He said " Take a band of Angels with you

So your Mom won't feel all alone

As you embrace her with your love

I'll reach down with loving arms

And touch her with my love and assurance

That will protect her from harm".

Let her know that I am  with her

and I'm there to ease her pain

That you're my Special Angel

And someday she'll be with  you again.

Yes your Angel is with you

No matter the circumstance

So if you feel a tug at your heart today

It's your Angel asking you to dance

               You lived your short, sweet life,

                  One numbered day at a time.

                    And the words and actions you shared with others

                           were always thoughtful & unforgetably kind.

                         You eagerly loved us all,

                              with your wholesome little heart.

                                  That's why it hurts so bad,

                                        to have to live our lives so very far apart.

                And if I could, I 'd proudly hold you

                   Never again to leave my sight.

                     But, you stand with God today,  

                       And in his arms & I know you'll be alright.

                   In Our broken-hearts and weary souls,

                 Your memory will forever more remain,

                                           Until that sweet & glorious day

                                       When we will all be with you again.

                                  Eternally your Spirit will live on,

                              In Us and in all the lives you've touched.

                     We give thanks to God, for blessing us with you,

                     An Angel ,who blessed Our lives so very much.

                 We miss you, Sweet Angel,

                more and more each day,

            And one day, I'll come to be with you,

 As long as I have your love & beauty, to light my weary way...

                                                                                Written By: Melissa Tucker

                                                                                                     July 8,2008 

             They say there is a reason

          They say that time will heal

            But neither time nor reason                      

              Will change the way we feel.

                For no one knows the heartache

                that lies behind our smiles,

                  No one knows how many times

                    we've broken down and cried.

                           We want to tell you something,

                         so there won't be any doubt

                           You're so wonderful to think of

                             But so hard to live without.

                   We cannot bring the old days back,

                   when we were all together

                     The Family chain is broken now,

                        but memories live forever.

If I had one wish. I would wish you were here.

So I wouldn't have no tears or any fears.

To have have your sweet smile it would take the pain away.

Till this day your friends remain the same.

Even though thier hearts are broken,the day has already come you will see that.

They will always love you the same. You will no longer feel pain.

And you are happy again.

God needs you to be in heaven,there is someone for you to save.

Know one knows who or when till that day Jessalyn everyday I pray.

That someone wil be me one day.

I love you and miss you so much.

I wish I could just feel one last touch.... 

They say there is a reason

They say that time will heal

But neither time nor reason

Will change the way we feel.

For no one knows the heartache

that lies behind our smiles.

No one knows how many times

We have broken down & cried.

We want to tell you something

so there won't be any doubt,

You're so wonderful to think of

but so hard to live without.

We cannot bring the old days back,

When we were all together.

The Family chain is broken now

But, memories live forever.

A butterfly was floating by, And I thought I knew it's face, It landed on my shoulder and spread it's wings of lace, I looked and saw it smiling, As it winked and flew away, I thought I heard it whisper, "We will meet again someday"

If we could have a lifetime wish And one dream that could come true

We would pray to God with all our hearts Just to see and speak to you

 A thousand words won't bring you back, We know because we've tried

And neither will a million tears We know because we've cried

You left behind our broken hearts and precious memories too

But we never wanted memories We only wanted you

Right now I'm in a different place,

  And though we seem apart,

   I'm closer than I ever was....

     I'm there inside your heart.

I'm with you when you greet each day

  And while the sun shines bright,

I'm there to share the sunsets, too...

     I'm with you every night.

I'm with you when the times are good,

  To share a laugh or two,

 And if a tear should start to fall...

    I'll still be there for you.

    And when that day arrives

   That we are no longer apart,

I'll smile and hold you close to me...

      Forever in my heart.

   Whispers From Heaven

When I left this World without you,

I know it made you blue.

Your tears fell so freely,

I watched, So I know it's true.

While you were weeping,

Days after I passed away.

And all was silent within me,

I saw you kneel to pray.

From this wonderful place called Heaven,

Where all my pain is gone,

I send a gentle breeze to whisper,

"My loved-ones, Please go on."

The peace that I have found here,

Goes far beyond compare.

No rain, no clouds, no suffering,

Just LOVE from everywhere.

You need not be troubled,

Just stay close to GOD in prayer.

Someday, we'll be reunited, Momma,

His love surrounds you, EVERYWHERE!

Just one little peek into heaven
Is all I'm asking for today
I just want to know how my Babe's doing
just to make sure she's doing okay

Is she singing on the clouds with angels?
Is she laughing and running today?
Does she know we all miss and Love her so?
I guess only she knows.
Oh why does heaven seem so far far away?

If you just let me look for a moment
To catch a glimpse of her sweet smiling face
I promise I won't try to take her
I know, she's in a better place

I'll never understand why
she had to leave all us,                       
if I could just talk to her
one more time i'll not make a fuss

I just want to tell her
she means the world to me
and I miss her so much,
and in my heart she will be

so please, Just one little peak in Heaven
if i could see her it might ease the pain
but I know  it never will stop hurting
until I see my Babe Again

One day that now seems so long ago.
I was given the gift of knowing you.
A precious gift of life from Heaven.
Oh my love had already grew!

Now, I sit and think about the days
Oh the wonderful days back when.
You would rush through the front door
and say Aunt Missie, I'ts me again.

I think about those precious days
Oh you are such a beauty to behold.
I shared the dreams of your future.
and saw each page unfold.

A beautiful angel & beautiful child.
Oh my hearts aches so much.
If I had known that you'd go away ...
Oh I would have never let go of your touch.

Oh, I never dreamed that I would be
a Friend with empty arms this night.
I long to just reach through the Heavens;
Grab hold to you & hold you tight.

I know that I will miss you forever.
And Babe, it hurts me so.
I do have memories of you to cherish.
But ... I can't ever let you go.

I hold your pictures to my chest,
as the rest of the world sleeps.
And every day since the day you left,
finds me once again as I weep.

People tell me that you're here with me.
But this I can't come to understand.
And, even if these words could help me.
I still want to hold your hand.

If I live to be a hundred years old,
I will be in mourning still.
And, when we reunite in the Heavens ...
Oh what a joy we will feel.

So, my precious Babe,
Look through the skies this night.
Take my hand & lead me to understand.
And once again, your light shines bright.

MY FIRST CHRISTMAS

IN HEAVEN  

 I am having my first Christmas

in Heaven a glorious, wonderful

day!

   I am standing with saints of all

ages, who found Christ, the

truth and the way.

   I am singing with the Heavenly

choir, I - who so loved to sing.

   And oh what celestial music we

bring to our Savior and King.

I am singing the glad song of

redemption.

   How Jesus to Bethlehem came,

and why they called His name

Jesus, that all may be saved

through His Name!

   Oh, loved ones I wish you

could be here!

   No Christmas on earth can

compare, with all the rapture

of glory, I witness in Heaven

so fair!

   You know how I always loved

Christmas, it seem such a

wonderful day, with all of my

loved ones around me. we

were so happy in every way.

   Yes, now I can see why I loved

it, and, oh what a joy it will be,

when all of my loved ones are

with me, to share all the glories

I see!

   So, dear ones on earth, I send

greetings, look up, till dawning

appears, and, oh, what a Christmas

awaits us, beyond all our parting

and tears!

WHAT IS CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU,
THE THOUGHT OF IT I CANNOT BARE,
TO GO ROUND CHRISTMAS DAY,
AND NOT SEE YOU STANDING THERE.
YOU'VE BEEN THERE MANY YEARS,
WITH A MERRY CHRISTMAS HUG AND A KISS,
BUT THIS YEAR I KNOW THAT IS ONE THING,
I'M SO DEARLY GOING TO MISS.
YOU'LL NEVER SEE THE TREE,
I DECORATED JUST FOR YOU,
YOU NEVER TOLD ME IT LOOKED LOVELY,
JUST LIKE YOU USED TO DO,
THE LIGHTS ARE SHINING BRIGHTLY, 
JESSALYN THEY ARE SHINING JUST FOR YOU,
I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR MEMORY,
IF IT'S THE LAST THING I EVER DO.
IF MY LOVE COULD HAVE SAVED YOU,
YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE DIED,
MY ONLY WISH THIS CHRISTMAS,
WOULD BE TO HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE 
CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU FRIEND,
IS THE HARDEST THING I'LL HAVE TO DO,
BUT I KNOW FROM WHERE YOU ARE,
YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO SEE ME BLUE,
SO IF YOU SEE ME SMILE,
WITHOUT A TEAR FALLING FROM MY EYE,
DON'T THINK THAT I'VE FORGOTTEN YOU,
BECAUSE I COULDN'T IF I TRYED,
I'D BE SMILING JUST FOR BABE,
AND FOR JAKE TOO,
I KNOW DEEP IN YOUR HEART,
THAT'S WHAT YOU WOULD WANT ME TO DO,
BUT IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY,
WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE,
I KNOW DEEP INSIDE MY HEART,
I'M GOING TO  BREAK DOWN AND CRY, 
I KNOW THAT THINGS IN LIFE MUST CHANGE,
WHETHER IT BE GOOD OR IT BE BAD,
BUT THE WAY YOU WENT WASN'T FAIR, 
SOMEONE SO SPECIAL,AN ANGEL IS WHAT WE  HAD,
THEY SAY LIFE GOES ON AND THINGS MUST CHANGE,
AND I GUESS THOSE WORDS ARE TRUE,
BUT THE ONE THING IN MY HEART WON'T CHANGE,
IS THAT I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU,
I LOVE YOU JESSALYN AND ALWAYS WILL,
BUT THAT I GUESSED YOU KNEW,
I GUESS THE ONLY THING THATS LEFT TO SAY IS,
OUR LIVES WILL NEVER BE THE SAME IT'LL FOREVER BE BLUE.

Our lives go on without you
But nothing is the same,
We have to hide our heartaches
When someone speaks your name.
Sad are the hearts that love you
Silent the tears that fall,
Living our hearts without you
Is the hardest part of all.
You did so many things for us
Your heart was kind and true,
And when we needed someone
We could always count on you.
The special years will not return
When we were all together,
But with the love within our hearts
You will walk with us forever.